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[oh silco definitely seem capable of being marked civil, that's for sure. he focuses on the rest though, grim as he types]

That's been my goal since I started here. Or, in truth, I was aimless for a while and then came to feel the same. At first it was a matter of legacy, now I find I genuinely care for this place. I hope I can see it grow.

[and ah, this seems both the right time and an odd time to tell vi, but he's been meaning to so why not?]

I'm dying. Lung disease even sleeper blood can't heal fast enough. I'm sure you've seen it before, plenty in the undercity end up lost to it each year. I have plans at the end of the month to try something of an experimental transplant, and I am hopeful, but yes, I suppose it's hard to say what will happen.

And, for what it is worth, I think you are one of the people I would trust to keep trying for this place. You have a good heart, Vi.

[woof, heavy. a lot. moving on to silco again barely is any better.]

I think with Silco it will be a matter of balancing. I don't like the idea of running off to warn everyone he could be dangerous and destroy any chance he has of building a new life, if that is what he plans. But I believe you when you say he's dangerous.

A mess, as I said. I suppose we will just have to be careful, both of him and jumping to condemnation because it is easier.

[the reply is at least an hour later, because vi has had herself a quiet cry, first where she sits on her bed and later on the roof, which is where she answers from.]
If you were someone else, I'd have so many things to say. Suggestions. Questions, even. But you're you, and I know you've already tried it all, or at least scribbled it out on a board and on papers, and you've run it all by people that know a lot more than I ever could. People that know different things.

This experimental transplant. Pal knows, right? Is he helping?

I haven't warned anyone. Except Sansa, because I live there, and if he thinks I'm a problem, or if I become a problem then I just don't want her caught up in it. I'm all for everyone getting a second chance, a chance at being something or someone new. I just don't want him to do it near me. But we don't always get what we want, and if this is how it is I guess I have to deal with that, too. Even though I don't want to. I hate it. I hate him so much.

vVander told me t hhat, you knowww. [caitlyn had said it too, just before the pain had swallowed her and she'd been woken - not with a kiss but with shimmer - and cait's gun notably absent. she has had a lot of time to think on this, too, since she's been here.] That I had a go od heeart, before every thing went to shit tt. before he died.................

I' m trying to be better.

I'm going to keep trying, but it's really hard. I should probably tell you everything. I owe you that, and honestly a lot more. Like, two ears if you wanna talk about anything for starters s.

We can make a promise then. To keep each other careful. You have my back, I have yours.

Keep each other from doing anything stupid.

[she can't believe she's even suggesting that he help her rein herself in when it is silco they are talking about, but here she is, doing just that. surprise surprise not really viktor she is worried about when it comes to doing anything stupid. it's vi. she is 100% talking about herself here.]

Yes, in fact he's performing the surgery. He's very good at what he does, and I'm very good at what I do so I am confident. My concerns are mostly for this place and what it will allow in terms of changing a sleeper's body at all.

There is too much left to do to succumb regardless, no?

I'll likely tell Palamedes, though less a warning and more simply the facts. In truth I am not concerned about his ability to handle someone like Silco, he's very resistant to manipulation and threats. And frankly Vi, that seems the best way to handle it. Keeping your distance and not pretending it is all well and good.

[and oh, he didn't even know vi knew vander. viktor only knew of him, who didn't in the undercity? he had heard vague rumblings of vander's children or proteges, of how they were lost with him. turns out at least two weren't, if jinx as vi's sister was also one. if that's what vi was to him.]

I never met the man myself, but I can imagine if he said it then it is true. He had the reputation for a very good heart himself.

There are probably matters I should tell you as well. I didn't think them important but now- well, it's all catching up to us, is it not? Funny, how interconnected everything is turning out. I thought it odd enough we all just happen to be born of the same place.

It's a promise.

Come by Sanctuary sometime soon, or I'll come to see you. I need to take some measurements for your gauntlets regardless.

[there's a lot she could say, a lot she wants to say, but she saves it for speaking. it's hard to think on this, and ...what the fuck, trench? bringing viktor come here for a so-called second chance and then stacking the deck with slow-dying lungs? like that isn't something a pthumerian couldn't have waved a ...something and taken care of. the whole thing is just bullshit, and that's just one more thing about (almost all of) them that she doesn't like. it occupies her thoughts, as does the message and what she might do with it - until she does do something, and that sets off a small series of events that cause this message to come a couple days later.]

You should come here. It's only fair that I return the favor. I didn't mean to leave you hanging.

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she tried not to cry on the omni but oops

she deserves a good cry tbh

they all do honestly