[the reply is at least an hour later, because vi has had herself a quiet cry, first where she sits on her bed and later on the roof, which is where she answers from.] If you were someone else, I'd have so many things to say. Suggestions. Questions, even. But you're you, and I know you've already tried it all, or at least scribbled it out on a board and on papers, and you've run it all by people that know a lot more than I ever could. People that know different things.
This experimental transplant. Pal knows, right? Is he helping?
I haven't warned anyone. Except Sansa, because I live there, and if he thinks I'm a problem, or if I become a problem then I just don't want her caught up in it. I'm all for everyone getting a second chance, a chance at being something or someone new. I just don't want him to do it near me. But we don't always get what we want, and if this is how it is I guess I have to deal with that, too. Even though I don't want to. I hate it. I hate him so much.
vVander told me t hhat, you knowww. [caitlyn had said it too, just before the pain had swallowed her and she'd been woken - not with a kiss but with shimmer - and cait's gun notably absent. she has had a lot of time to think on this, too, since she's been here.] That I had a go od heeart, before every thing went to shit tt. before he died.................
I' m trying to be better.
I'm going to keep trying, but it's really hard. I should probably tell you everything. I owe you that, and honestly a lot more. Like, two ears if you wanna talk about anything for starters s.
We can make a promise then. To keep each other careful. You have my back, I have yours.
Keep each other from doing anything stupid.
[she can't believe she's even suggesting that he help her rein herself in when it is silco they are talking about, but here she is, doing just that. surprise surprise not really viktor she is worried about when it comes to doing anything stupid. it's vi. she is 100% talking about herself here.]
she tried not to cry on the omni but oops
If you were someone else, I'd have so many things to say. Suggestions. Questions, even. But you're you, and I know you've already tried it all, or at least scribbled it out on a board and on papers, and you've run it all by people that know a lot more than I ever could. People that know different things.
This experimental transplant. Pal knows, right? Is he helping?
I haven't warned anyone. Except Sansa, because I live there, and if he thinks I'm a problem, or if I become a problem then I just don't want her caught up in it. I'm all for everyone getting a second chance, a chance at being something or someone new. I just don't want him to do it near me. But we don't always get what we want, and if this is how it is I guess I have to deal with that, too. Even though I don't want to. I hate it. I hate him so much.
vVander told me t hhat, you knowww. [caitlyn had said it too, just before the pain had swallowed her and she'd been woken - not with a kiss but with shimmer - and cait's gun notably absent. she has had a lot of time to think on this, too, since she's been here.] That I had a go od heeart, before every thing went to shit tt. before he died.................
I' m trying to be better.
I'm going to keep trying, but it's really hard. I should probably tell you everything. I owe you that, and honestly a lot more. Like, two ears if you wanna talk about anything for starters s.
We can make a promise then. To keep each other careful. You have my back, I have yours.
Keep each other from doing anything stupid.
[she can't believe she's even suggesting that he help her rein herself in when it is silco they are talking about, but here she is, doing just that. surprise surprise not really viktor she is worried about when it comes to doing anything stupid. it's vi. she is 100% talking about herself here.]